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I’m Letting Go Now (Mom’s Song)

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     It was at the very end of my mom’s life and she was in a nursing home receiving hospice care. Mom had been apologizing to her youngest sister about having to leave her so soon but we knew it would not be long before Mom’s passing. Before I left that evening, I got on the bed next to her and whispered in her ear several times, saying “It’s OK for you to let go now.” My sister stayed at her bedside that last night.

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     At 3 o’clock in the morning, I woke up and sat straight up in bed. I felt VERY happy, instantly happy, unlike anything I’ve ever felt! I knew Mom had just passed. I was certain I was experiencing that kind of feeling that people describe when they have a near-death experience. Then, all of a sudden, I “heard” a song and all the words and the melody. I wrote the lyrics down as fast as I could. Then I sang it into my phone for safe keeping. I also “saw” one of my cousins singing it. She always sang old -time Gospel that Mom enjoyed. I have learned to call these unexplainable visions and insight experiences, a flash.

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     I am not sure what time the next day they officially listed Mom’s passing because she had a pacemaker that was still on. I believe she had passed at the time I had my flash. I contacted my cousin from in my flash and shared my experience. I then asked her if she could sing the song at Mom’s funeral and she agreed.

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     A bit of back story to all of this, is that I was in production of a dinner theatre at the time. Mom had previously been my main costume designer for years. Months before she had told me that she was sorry but she was unable to help on this production. Also, the dinner theatre, being a medieval theme, had an old- world scroll design for all the promotional materials.

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     In planning her funeral, we were asked about an area on her casket that had room for an inscription and I immediately knew that the lyrics to the song should go there. I never saw the casket until we were at the grave site. As I stood there, before they lowered the casket, I saw that on the top of her casket were the words to her song were inscribed on the SAME, old-world scroll background as the dinner theatre! It was also so special to hear the song at her funeral given to me to share with others.

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What a gift, a song; complete with details of her journey.

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I’m Letting Go Now

I’m letting go now

I’m headin’ for Heaven

Where those bright skies

Will forever be seen

There’s no more pain now

I’m seeing His glory

Those gates have opened

Soon I will be free

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I’m letting go now

I’m headin’ for Heaven

Those bright shores

I forever will see

Know things are better

As I crossover

Don’t you mourn long now

For with Jesus I’ll be